seems like..

seems like the universe is telling me something! seriously!!

and that something is no other than the fact that life is indeed short! This is, of course, a fact each one of us have always known since time immemorial. A fact I've always known. A fact I realized more so last September when dada died after just 1 month and.. just a while ago when mama faced the same problem (well, almost the same prob.) with sina papa last year.

You see, earlier today, Auntie Coring died of pancreatic cancer. And it's just so nakaka-sad because Auntie Coring was Lolo's sister who was always the gracious one. She was the one who always wanted to have a Cheng clan reunion. In Manila, this is the Cheng clan reunion we would always go to. Hers. As was the case last Dec. when she hosted a sort of Christmas get-together for us. We, as the representatives of our parents of course, were always the ones present. Because.. mom said so!

So this afternoon we had a dilemma re how to break this news to lolo. You see, Lolo's health is not very good anymore. So when mama and Aunt Aida learned about Auntie Coring's condition last month, they decided not to tell him. I agreed. Coz Lolo is senti, emotional.. he can't sleep properly esp. after Pacpac died.. he once said, he can see his dead friends and brothers.. calling him, playing mahjong with him.. If your Lolo was like that already, would you even bother telling him such heart-breaking news about his sister???

UNtil this afternoon when Auntie Aida told mom the news that Auntie Coring was very sick and can die na anytime kanina.. we hoped to tell lolo tomorrow this news once we arrived in Manila. Thinking, what is one more day right? Coz Lolo and Lola were really Manila-bound tomorrow anyways because we were supposed to have a get-together (party) on Sat. But of course, and I think, that this recent event totally changed everything. That was supposed to be a 2-day party. Now, how do we break the news to Lolo??? Lola is tulala until now!! What to do, what to do..

I am not particularly close with second cousins and relatives.. Sometimes I remember them, sometimes I bump into them without even recognizing them and without remembering their names even! I am nakakahiya, I know. But with all the parties I go to (because I have to represent my mom), I have learned how to love them too and enjoy their company. Auntie Coring's passing is indeed sad. A big loss to all of us. I guess, now, we won't have anymore parties to go to in that house of hers. I will miss the bonsais.. and the little what-nots..

I feel what sina CHris could be feeling right now. Coz I had 1 month to stay with dada and it really hurt. And moving on was hard because of the time span. Papa is just learning how to move on once again, Dodo is still trying to pick up the pieces, we have not even tried going back to Dada's room.. because going to her house is like feeling her presence all over again. So nobody dares try enter her room. We can go but only until the sala of her room.. not yet her room, room. Chris and their fam had a little less than a month.. So I can just imagine how terribly, terribly sad this whole thing is for them.

So there you go.. another death in the family. Another reminder that LIFE IS SHORT. How can I even afford to waste even a minute of my life???