Hyper-ness..

It's 4:01 AM and I am still so up!! I can't sleep and I don't know why! Just got back an hour ago from watching The Proposal.. got stucked in Greenbelt and so we had to wait for the rain to stop.. I want to sleep na but I can't sleep!! A few hours ago, around 5 PM, I fell asleep because I felt so, so, bad I thought I was gonna get sick!! Good thing I felt better after eating veggies!! Eck. but effective! I think. Never thought that student life can be so, so very tiring!!!

I am always, always tired whenever I get back home from school. School is fun yet very challenging! The people I'm with are truly different from the people I met in college. A part of me wants to get to know each one of them more and more in the upcoming months. Part of me is inspired by their achievements. Part of me feels intimidated by them at times. But of course, in a good way, I guess.

Never thought that studying Chinese language can be this hard! Of course it is quite easy pa for me now because I studied everything I'm learning now before but I'm worried it might get harder as we go along.

This morning, we had an activity in listening. It was really oh, so hard!! Almost all of my answers were not-so-good (read: wrong!!). I felt so ashamed. Yet challenged. But then it got me thinking once again: is this really what I applied for?

I applied for the GBF to learn the language. Of course! To reconnect with my roots, to discover the Chinese culture more and more by experiencing it.. I joined to think about what I really want in life.. what I wanted to be.. what I wanted to do.. to have a break from everything! This was supposed to be my time to discover and rediscover every little thing that was out there for me to discover. To learn. To experience. If you ask me to put it in simple terms, I would think/say that I'm in this program for the fun. For the experience. It truly is a once in a lifetime opportunity. No doubt about that!!

But I'm confused. Yet happy. Intimidated but determined. Inspired and at the same time, a little bored. I'm hyper but also down and lazy..

Oh, there's so much I want to do right now at this very moment!!

I want to cover my books. I want to study. I want to practice speaking Chinese. I want. I want. I want. Yet the bed is calling me already!!

And I also need to think about that weird family reunion tom.

whose theme is really bothering me!

and my hair is bothering me as well!!

My hair is in a super weird condition today!! Thought it would be better to have bangs!! but the freaking bangs, I think, didn't work like how I wanted it to!!

and now I look weird!!

but can't do anything but..

huhuhu.. kung hindi lang talaga kasalanan sa nanay ko na ako'y magpa hair extensions!! grrr!!!

oh, life!!