my last night in Shanghai

tonight is somehow like my last night in Shanghai as we need to head to the airport tomorrow at 9 PM to catch our 12:30 AM flight back to Manila.

Up till now I can't believe that I've been here for 5 months already! Shanghai has indeed, become a huge part of my life. It changed me the same way it changed each and everyone's lives in the program.

A classmate asked me earlier, "is there any chance you're coming back in Shanghai?" and that's when I thought about Mom's offer to stay for yet another term. Too bad I turned it down. Why I turned it down, I also don't know. But now I feel like I regret it. Wasted opportunity. But I do know that I want to study yet again. Where? I don't know, just somewhere exciting. Study what is another question I still have to figure out when I return in the Philippines.

All of our plans for tonight was cancelled because of the bad weather and also because of the delay in the scheduled pick up of my balikbayan box! I don't know but packing is such a tiring thing!! Somehow, stuffing my closet and shelves with stuff was really a lot more easier then emptying all of them to send back home!! Now I feel some kind of separation anxiety with my box. Just a few hours and I already miss it! But it's okay coz it's coming in right before my birthday!! Yey!!

Lots of stuff come to mind as I go back home. Biggest of which is what I am gonna do when I do go back home. I feel like there are so much more adventures and journeys in life I wanna take and yet being in this program also makes me feel that at one point, I have to stop, grow up, and face reality. Because whether I like it or not, no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, there's no escaping it. Being in the GBF Program and people made me realize that this is what I need to do soon.