Sunday, November 29, 2009

complicates everything...

I honestly don't know why people say that 'friendship is the best stage to start a relationship!' seriously! it complicates everything! messes up with your emotions, much more your brain!! I am soooo confused with this. don't get!

it's better pa ata if you're left with that what-if factor.. at least in terms of lavadeedoo.. because then you get the chance to be kilig and all! because if you're friends, what do you get?? nothing but that feeling of knowing that forever, nothing will ever become of that hope!! that feeling that you can hope and hope.. wish and wish.. pray and pray hard.. and that in the end, there is really nothing in there! nothing. nada. zero! In short, asa ka pa girl/boy!! ASA KA PA!!

In this sense, motto mo na: 'dream on! dahil walang masama managinip!'
Feeling: crappy!! crappy all the time!! what with all that wishful thinking and stuff!!

I don't know with you but me, I hate it! I hate it, I hate it soooo, soooo, much!! It's so powerful though that it can change you! and even if you don't like it, it will freaking influence you to do crazzzzyyyyyy things which will make you tell yourself: "crap!! I shouldn't have done that! napahiya nanaman ako!"

what.the.eff.keisha!! kasi naman.. just forget diba!

;-0

Monday, November 23, 2009

should i..

should I be inspired or what?!? I am so confused right now!!
Why do I feel this way? I am supposed to be inspired. I should be inspired!
This, I guess, just proves me right.
This is WRONG. ALL WRONG!!

Instead of feeling inspired, I feel lazy.
Instead of being happy and care-free, I feel praning!
yeah.. it's fun and all.. but..
aanhin ko naman ang fun,
when deep down, I know it's wrong??
JUST ALL WRONG!!

I feel happy. Yes. But also confused.
Because what I'm feeling is not aligned, not right.
But also because.. deep down,
I KNOW THAT IT IS SOOOO
IMPOSSIBLE!!

And that is all there is to that!!

;-)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

wrong reasons..

i am tired and i am bored. when i am in school, i feel happy. but also pressured. when i see my classmates doing their papers already, i feel pressured but also ashamed! ashamed that i am so lazy compared to them! but then again, something always, always, inspires one..

wherever we are, something always inspires us. i make it a point to designate something to be my inspiration. to motivate me to wake up everyday early in the morning. with gbf, i sure had one as i not only needed to get out of my bed! i also had to learn how to get out of the house at 7:30 AM and commute to school which takes me almost 1 hour!! ah! life! it is so hard!!

but then again, sometimes, people do some things for all the wrong reasons. and yeah.. i guess during these times, we cannot do anything but be in control. control our feelings. control our emotions. so that in the end, we remain focused. focused on what we really are here for!

i've been there, i've done that. and now i know.. that i don't ever, ever, wanna be in the same place. at least not now. i need to focus. to concentrate. because in the end, i know that this thing, if continued, will really do me no good. NO GOOD AT ALL. in the end, there is nothing in it for me. and yes, i guess, i am afraid. afraid that now that i have found myself once again, i will loose it one more time. afraid to get lost for this thing, which i believe is so not worth it.

so now everyday, i have to convince myself to focus. and focus. and to just get over it fast!! but dude, you sure aren't helping!! you're so not making it easy!! ;-)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

which one do you like..

we were talking earlier.. i was talking to different groups of people..

for girls: which one do you prefer girls, the VOLVO or the FERRARI???

and for guys: the HOT & SEXY or the CUTE & CHARMING???

Moi?? I go for the VOLVO!! haha.. girls, I think, when we're young would really prefer the FERRARI.. as it's exciting, cool, young and what-not! It's ANGAS, in short.. but as we grow up, we'll realize.. 'ay, mas gusto ko pala si VOLVO!! mas class.. mas pang matagalan!! ELEGANT-EH!! haha... ;-)

And guys.. will always be guys.. I am not a guy so I really don't know!! BUt I think they'd choose the cute & charming over the hot & sexy??? hahaha.. BOO ME! I am so biased!! You see, I was NEVER A FAN OF THE HOT & SEXY!! I ALWAYS WENT AFTER THE CUTE & CHARMING LOOK!! feeling ko lang mas dala ko sha!!

How bout chu?? What u think?? haha.. LOL.

;-)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

when you've got cancer..

a girl on TV said, 'when you are diagnosed with cancer, come straight to Fu Dan.' She said this at the risk of antagonizing the doctors here in Manila. I agree with her.

When you are diagnosed with cancer, and you know that this place holds what amount of hope for you and your family, wouldn't you do it as well??

Let me tell you this, when one of your family is diagnosed with cancer and whose buhay is may taning na, you don't really think anymore. Whatever doctors tell you to do, you do. Whatever they tell you to pay, you pay. Whatever reason they give you, sensible or otherwise, seems and sounds sensible to you na! In short, you don't really care anymore. Mentality: Just do whatever you can do to save her, please!!

When you are diagnosed with cancer.. yeah.. this is good if the diagnosis comes early. But in some cases, it just comes at a time when it's already too late. Too late for you to decide. Too late for you to prepare. Too late for you to understand. Too late to live. And months later, just when you thought you're okay na, you realize that still, there is that one part of you missing. And that it still hurts. That it still hurts so much to remember.

When Dada was hospitalized, I realized so many things! Among these is the fact that when sickness chooses you to be its victim, esp. the big C, you don't really have any choice. You can fight a good fight. But chances are, you will loose all you've got.

When she was hospitalized, we were referred to the best doctors. We were given the best of whatever options they can give us.. but still.. we weren't able to do anything. Nothing. We just had to wait.. and face that fateful day last September.. and try.. live and try to live our lives without her..

So I say, when you are diagnosed with cancer, go straight to Fu Dan. The doctors here were good. I'll have to admit. Very helpful! But Crap... sorry for the bitterness.. but it took them 3 long weeks to confirm what they initially suspected to us!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

enlighten me please..

This is the kind of thing that makes me say.. WHAT THE HELL!!
I mean people!! this is Edu Manzano we are talking about!
Yeah he's cool, Mr. Suave and all.. but please naman! even I know that it takes more than huli-ing piratas to be the VP of a Republic like ours!!

Ow.Ehm.Gee talaga!! As in highest level!! This is why people would choose Loren over him! This is why Mr. Palengke is going to win!! kasi naman.. iweigh naman sana natin noh.. dahil kung kagustuhan lang talaga ang pag-uusapan.. I AM SURE, MAS MARAMI PA JANG QUALIFIED NA GUSTO MAGING VP O KAHIT NA PANGULO PA NITONG ATING BANSA!! pwede ba!! Common sense!!

Note to Mar: LALABAN TAYO!! DAHIL NOW MORE THAN EVER, KAILANGAN TALAGA LUMABAN SIR!! I SWEAR!!

MR. EDU, your jokes are benta talaga to me.. as in!! the papaya thing is cool.. game KNB is okay.. but pls. sir.. think about it! is this really what chu want??? ok na sana e..

So remind me again please.. what Mr. Edu has done aside from allegedly catching pirata DVD sellers (dahil seriously!! ang dami pang pirata sa streets! kahit nga sa malls!)..
because as far as I am concerned, the first thing that comes to mind when I hear his name is..
THE PAPAYA SONG AND SANCE NUMBER!!
Now that was cute!! But not VP CUTE worthy!! sorry nalang talaga!!

Edu Manzano: Surprise move, good choice


Philippine Daily Inquirer
First Posted 01:33:00 11/14/2009

Filed Under: Politics, Elections, Eleksyon 2010

MANILA, Philippines – Edu Manzano’s decision to run as the vice presidential candidate of the ruling Lakas-Kampi-CMD caught the Liberal Party (LP) flatfooted.

“We were surprised,” LP campaign manager Butch Abad said, adding that Manzano was supposed to have been listed already among the party’s nine senatorial aspirants. (Its complete 12-member slate will be announced before Nov. 30.)

“We were aware that Manzano was getting overtures from Lakas, [but] we continued talking to him,” Abad said.

Nevertheless, Sen. and LP president Mar Roxas wished Manzano well.

“Best of luck to Edu in 2010. Welcome to national politics. He is a worthy opponent,” said Roxas, who is himself seeking the vice presidency.

“I trust that Filipinos will choose their candidates based on a strong platform for real change,” he said.

‘Good man’

Ousted President Joseph Estrada had also earlier named Manzano among the 12 persons running for senator in the ticket of the Pwersa ng Masang Pilipino led by himself and his running mate, Makati Mayor Jejomar Binay.

But he said Manzano was a “good man” whom he had known for a long time.

“He is qualified to run for the second highest position in the land,” Estrada said during the Davao del Norte leg of his “Lakbay Pasasalamat” sortie.

Binay, who was with Estrada in Tagum City, said Manzano’s entry into the vice presidential race was “welcome.”

He also said in a phone interview that voters would have a bigger variety of choices with the addition of Manzano.

Still, he expressed surprise at Manzano’s move.

Said Binay’s spokesperson Lito Anzures: “It is also good that this early, we can identify those who will stand by their principles and those who can be swayed by political pressure and enticements.”

‘Exciting race’

Sen. Manny Villar, the standard-bearer of the Nacionalista Party (NP), said it would be an “exciting” vice presidential race with the entry of Manzano.

Villar has yet to identify his own running mate, whom he described as “popular” and “good.” He said he would make the announcement, along with the NP senatorial slate, next week.

He declined to answer when asked if Sen. Loren Legarda of the Nationalist People’s Coalition was it.

Legarda, herself a declared vice presidential aspirant, said she was glad that administration standard-bearer Gilbert Teodoro had found a “suitable” running mate.

She described Manzano as a “gentleman” and said she “sincerely” wish the tandem well.

‘Show biz lineup’

In Baguio City where he addressed a convention of cooperatives in the Cordillera, Senate Majority Floor Leader Miguel Zubiri said he hoped the Teodoro-Manzano tandem would boost the stock of the administration slate in 2010.

Zubiri said Manzano’s nomination as the ruling party’s vice presidential candidate completed its “show biz lineup.”

He added: “It’s an exciting tandem. They’re both handsome men. Add to the mix Sen. Bong Revilla, who is leading our senatorial slate. It’s truly show biz glamour.”

Zubiri’s earlier planned nomination as Teodoro’s running mate was briefly discussed at the convention.

“They offered me the vice presidency but I was too busy at the Senate,” he said, adding that he declined the nomination during a Thursday forum with President Macapagal-Arroyo and party leaders at MalacaƱang.

Zubiri said the party leadership accepted his decision because he had “something important to do next week—[shepherding] the 2010 national budget through Congress.”

The Palace has been pushing a P115-billion General Appropriations Act on an election year.

Part of shortlist

Manzano had been shortlisted along with Zubiri, Revilla, Legarda and former Sen. Vicente Sotto III as a possible vice presidential candidate, according to Baguio Rep. Mauricio Domogan.

A member of the Lakas-Kampi-CMD national executive committee, Domogan said Manzano had to be formally affirmed by the party assembly on Nov. 19.

Unless there are “exceptional reasons” working against Manzano, he would likely get the assembly’s endorsement, Domogan said.

Reports from Fe Zamora, Christine O. Avendaƃ±o, Michael Lim Ubac and Allison W. Lopez in Manila; Vincent Cabreza, Inquirer Northern Luzon; and Frinston Lim, Inquirer Mindanao

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

just the right mix..

some people just don't get it. they try so hard. but trying so hard is weird. awkward. dangerous!

people differ in so many ways. most of them differ in their personalities. i believe in not making the simplest things complicate my life. i believe in standing up for what i believe in. but also in knowing when i need to just hang around especially if the thing is no matter of life and death. i will admit that sometimes, i really do just 'go with the flow.' because if the matter is just so, so simple na i won't die naman, then, what the hell!! so be it!! let's make them happy, right?!? you see, unlike some people, i don't really have much issues in my life!! thank goodness!! i am just soooo over that!! and all that drama!! ECK!! ;-)

you see, unlike some people, i don't like drama! i can be quiet, i can be noisy, i can be gentle and rowdy.. but never, never, dramatic!! i swear!! please.. don't ever tell me na (something i can't really tell you pala..)! i don't know how others take me to be.. but in the end, it's only me who can truly tell myself who i am!! plus, the people who's been with me through these years.. of course!! naturally, you, you, and you can all tell me what you think of me.. na i'm always 'go with the flow' and what-not but so what!! i will forever think that you are just inggit!! Friend, the key word here is accept!! ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE SO YOU CAN HAVE A REALLY FUN LIFE LIKE ME! WITH NO DRAMA! WITH NO ISSUES!! with particular emphasis on the issues please..

not all people are like me. i know that. i respect that. but some people are like me. and when they are, the i guess, it's all good, we jive! but then again, i jive also with those who are unlike me!! because that's them and this is me!! we're different. and that's what makes this life soooo interesting!! PLEASE!! LET'S NOT TRY TO CHANGE THAT!! ;-0 Friend, this is me. If you can't respect that, then, please.. better shut up, back off.. or stay and learn how to accept because nobody can really change me!! ESP. NOT YOU!! It will take someone MORE IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE THAN JUST YOU!! So in short, if you can't accept me, then, what the hell! I don't really care!!

again, A is A and B is B. U are U and no matter what you do, you cannot really be anybody else except yourself!!

Ay!!! now i'm kinda pissed thinking about it!! imagine, one random guy telling me that i am always go with the flow (with bad connotation, of course!). that, according to him, i'm always, always like that!! what.the.hell.dude!! Question lang ha..

FRIENDS BA TALAGA TAYO??
REMIND ME AGAIN PLEASE KUNG KELAN LANG KITA NAKILALA???
WE DON'T EVEN TALK-TALK THAT MUCH!!
SO HOW DARE THEE!!

blah, blah, blah..
rant, rant, rant..
tata..tatta.. tatta..

too much effort na itoh for you!!
masaya kah!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

things on my mind..

i need a break!! this is my break!! i've been studying since 9 P.M.! this is the first time in a long while!! I feel like I'm back in my high school because I'm studying Han Zi and not theories.. theories.. and zzz..

I've been thinking of so many things lately..

1. Am really happy that Dodo is happy we ( me and my sisters ) learned a lot from living here in Manila!! He is naaawa to us though.. but it's really weird how I thought, all along that my life here was normal.. until last Nov. 1 when I went home for All Soul's Day and heard him tell everyone: "you know, ang buhay niyang mga yan sa Manila, nakakaawa.. gising na sila ng 5 or 6 naliligo na.. si Keisha, ang school, ang layo layo nagccommute.." LOL. True enough. I realized just now, I've come a long way. I've learned a lot. Most of them, things I would have never learned had I stayed in Naga.

So now, question is, should I move on and learn bigger things? Or is it time na for me to go back?? Hay.. confusing!!

2. To buy or not to buy. There is this one thing I really, really, really like. But I promised myself I will not spend anymore and start learning how to save na! But it's hard! It's so hard. Like what tita said to dodo last Nov. 1.. LOL.

3. ... secret ko pala toh kunyari!!!

4. I-CARE, papers.. GBF requirements!! Sometimes while I'm eating dinner, bigla na lang an idea would pop in my mind.. but when I sit in front of the computer to write it down, nawawala na sila!! ARGH!!

5. Shanghai.. Shanghai.. Oh, Shanghai!! Need I say more?!?