my stay in GBF..

Note to self: I am supposed to write this down in Chinese!! WTH!!

My stay in GBF has so far been so good. I am happy to be here. Happy that I am here. Happy that I got this one in a lifetime opportunity to be in a program such as GBF.

I guess I cannot deny the fact that I am happy in GBF. I truly am. Ever since I got in and started school last July, I have not had any problems with the way they run this whole thing. Except maybe now that the papers are getting quite a little confusing. But aside from that, I have none. Zero. Nada!

Ever since I entered GBF, I have discovered a part of me that I've been wanting to discover. Ever since joining GBF, my life has become more exciting, more fun. Though our classes are the same every single day, still, I look forward to each and every single day I spend with my GBF classmates.

Joining GBF has been more of a journey for personal growth to me. True. I really wanted to learn the language too so as to reconnect and rediscover my Chinese lineage, but I guess, more than that, the reason why I am truly in this program, is so that I can grow up. So that I can learn more things from more people. So that I will learn to listen to the stories of other peoples' lives as well as grow from the experiences that they bring with them.

It is hard to define the me that I am slowly rediscovering now. It feels like I am on a big adventure. One big thrilling adventure. Where I am realizing the real essence of how to truly live life one day at a time. And hope that someday, somewhere, I will reap the fruits of my labor. And believe. Just believe. In others, in myself. In just about every single thing that makes up my life. Believe.

In the three months I've been with GBF, I have learned that I do not necessarily have to be no. 1. While it is true that sometimes the attention you get from being on that top spot can be wonderful, sometimes, it is not what will make you happy. Just not what will make me happy. In these 3 months, I have learned to accept some of my weaknesses which I've come to realized ever since joining the program and slowly cope.. and work hard so that they can eventually be my strengths. Again, I do not necessarily have to be the no. 1 or the best. I just have to be me. And live my life the way I want to. Unafraid of what others think. And to just have fun. 'Coz in the end, that is all that matters. That will always be what will keep me going. What will continue to make me confident that what I am doing is right. That what I am doing is truly what I want to be doing. Not before, not in the future, but what I want to be doing right now!

In these 3 months I've been with GBF, I've experienced another face of what it means to be working and co-existing in a diverse culture. I just love diversity. If in IMS, I experienced diversity in terms of culture, in GBF, I am in an environment filled with people from diverse background. Different people, different backgrounds, different personalities, different cultures and so much more. And yet co-existing in one big group that is the YYP (Yin YAng Pandas). Amidst all the diversity, amidst all the silent air of competition, still, one sees how each and every one makes an effort to help another. How to be happy in one another's company as well as take solace and comfort from one another whenever we feel down.

It sometimes amazes me how some people can form strong friendships in this short span of time. Honestly, I myself have also found some people whom I can trust. People who I share my feelings, secrets, and what-nots with. It truly is amazing. But I guess sometimes, you just have to really believe. Believe in the magic of friendship as well as in the magic of life.

I truly am lucky. More than lucky, perhaps, I am blessed. For going to Shanghai is easy. Studying can also be easily done. But I guess what makes this program truly unique and wonderful as it is, is the company of my fellow 39 other scholars. Truly, it is an amazing experience. It is an amazing journey! And such, I truly hope that we can still be together for the remainder of this program. That we can all be together in Shanghai.

Now my essay for Han Zi class is probably not gonna be like this! Oh, if I can only write all these down in Chinese, then, that is one less problemo for me!! But I am excited for Friday! I truly am! Halloween party in the halls of Rosario! Oh yeah! I'm also going home that day!

Tomorrow, we shall have a mock test! I am supposed to be studying but what the hell! here I am - blogging!! Oh life! And I thought yesterday was the start of my geeky life!!

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